Poetry: I tried...

I am a slender spherical dream filled paper,
I burn and breathe a most fulfilling air that one craves to eat.
A heightened sense of pleasure I bring,
to every part of a being.
I am a fashion icon and visions of beauty
filter through with every breath that makes my bosom heighten.
I am a cowboy, I have wild eyes and
make you swoon with bulge in clever disguise.
I am a symbol of greatness in this life and
everything that brings you happiness.
But I am not immortal and
I am not laid to rest amongst the roses and daffodils.
So what becomes of such renowned power?
With my last dangerous, flirtatious swirl
I choke on induced fluids around tarnished pearls,
I wrinkle and age.
When the power is finally dried and wasted
I am thrown down and
I pull you with me down the dark deep well
where we land on the beach, take our last quiver.
Together we rot in wet sand.

Oy Vey?

I think I was too brash... all humans reall can be quite annoying, lets make a continant to put all the annoying immature and/or stupid and obnoxious people on and let them fend for themselves!!! It's soo sad ideas like that can not be fruitfull :(

Powder Hound

My snowboarding trip was awsome!!! I just went over the weekend to Jiminy Peak in Mass and conditions were pretty good, a little icy but nothing to worry about too much. I am FINALLY getting better at snowboarding and so am finding more time enjoyed and less time struggling or on my ass! lol I went with my bf and our friend Dave and we had a really good time. I got to the top of the mountain and that was a real big accomplishment for me, I havn't done anything but a bunny slope before this ha, but it was really kinda rough going down, my legs were not used to the long runs and I kept having to take breaks. Also I was having difficulty going to toe side since I'm not too good and it on steeper slopes, so back to the bunny hill it was for me and I practiced and I got much better and my carving. I never thought I would be on any kind of skiis or snowboard and I'm glad I learned because it's fun, challenging, and quite the rush. Fun but now it's bed time for me, I have to rest my sore muscles! I feel like my arms are paralyzed they're so sore from me falling and having to push myself back up. It is such a workout! I wish I could do it everyday along with my yoga I'd be in some shape!!! I love Kelly Clark she is my favorite snowboarder ever!!! She may have come in 4th in the last olympics but she can put it down pretty much just as good as any guy and I'll always be the biggest fan because she can produce the biggest jumps!!! She's amazing to watch, if you havn't seen her ride check out some of her moves <3

Yoga for the body/ Playboy for the Military?

So I am taking Yoga in school and I LOOOOOOVE it! Yoga is my new favorite past time. I really like pilates too but I like how yoga incorperates meditation along with workouts, the meditation has really been helping me with stress and anxiety. I don't think I would ever be a Yogi lol but yoga is definitely something I want to make part of my life. It really hurts right now though, I am sooo NOT flexible. In high school I was so flexible and now I can't do shit anymore, I can't run anymore either (not that I could that well in hight school either but it was better back then for sure). So I'v come to the conclusion that I have to get rid of my beer gut and well... stop drinking beer lol! I love to party but I've a got a keg baby to show for it haha! :D Hopefully I'll get into shape and give birth soon!

One topic that is making me crazy right now is that whole scandal with Antonella Barba or whatever her name is on American Idol... sorry but I vote they should have kicked her off big time! Honestly, I could give a shit if she has scandales photos.. I don't care.. who doesn't have black mail photo of themselves somewhere but what really makes me pissed is that that other girl Frenchie was kicked off because of photos like Antonella's and Antonella doesn't get the boot off... that's just crap! Just because Frenchie's not some young "hot" something something, It's rediculous. Really though I don't think Frenchie should have got kicked off in the first place, so what if she took topless photos! No one fucking knew unitll it was announced all over the news when she got kicked off idol for it. All those people have a past on that show and I'm sure these arn't the only two ladies (or men) who have photos like these, they just havn't gotten caught that they took them yet, it's stupid. Seriously people they were naked in a photo get over it, hugh hefner makes girls famous and greatly paid everyday for worse photos than theirs, and they get respect???

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Ohhhhh! that reminds me! The girl who posed for Playboy who was in the army haha that is kinda a tough predicament lol I mean I don't think there's anything wrong with posing for playboy, but if you're in the army... ehhh... and she was a Sergeant I believe. The military is making her resign and she doesn't think that she gets the same freedoms as everyone else but well she doesn't. Neither does anyone else with a job honey! She needs to stop crying about that, I was going to get fired from Lindt because I had an eyebrow piercing.. I have the freedom to get that done and they were still going to fire me! If I had to make the final decision though to let her go or not that's a tough call, I mean is it that big of a deal. She definitely knows how to do her job she's been in the military for 13 years I believe but I guess I would have to really be in the situation to have a say in that. If the men arn't going to take her seriously anymore because they have seen the pictures than that could definitely pose a problem, and women in the military could be worse even, totally not taking her seriously and call her a slut and stuff you know how girls are ugghhh... Our culture I just don't think is mature enough for it, if it was mature women's bodies would be art not objects, and then playboy probably wouldn't even exist! :D

First Blogs and Fig Trees

This is my first blog and how exciting it is! I need some excitement right about now it's F-ing freeeezing in this house!!! So this new blog that I have started is a good way for me to get some of my writing into the world. It may not be Hemingway or Dickinson but It holds a lot of my opinions and emotions in it. I think this is also a great way for me to write in journal form from time to time so if this all sounds like brain garbage it's because it is! :) lol Brain garbage is the best! I've never started and kept up with a journal so I hope this keeps me on track.

You know what are really good... Fig friggin Newtons! They are addicting!!! and do not help when you're trying to lose weight :( and what's really funny is that I'm trying to lose weight so I can fit into all these pants that I have so I don't have to go out and buy new ones because I'm mad cheap ha! It really wouldn't be a bad thing to start toning up for my pretty baithing suits for the summer... so yea Fig Newtons crazy in love with them!

I really wanna bust out my camera and start taking some hot shots, I really would LOVE to be a photographer but I don't even know the first thing about real camera work... I know how to take the film down to CVS lol I have a crazy dream plan though that one day I'm just going to find some magic beans and *BAM* I'm going to be this great photographer with mad knowlege and put together my masterpiece collage of black and white nude photos of men and woman with all different body types calles "Bodies of Truth"( I think that's what I want to title to be at this moment) Well whatever the title it's going to be hot! Well if body and body image entrigues you as it entrigues me then it should be hot!